reality sets in

AND IM FINALLY REALIZING THAT IN FEWER THAN 72 HOURS I WILL BE ON A PLANE TO GERMANY!

why did I realize this? all because of public radio, of course. Driving back from buying stuff that I "need" in order to travel, I was listening to public radio, and an orchestra was playing something beautiful, and I felt something. I yearned to go to an excellent orchestra concert. Like that same feeling when you just want a good cry - like you need it in order to feel like you can move on. I want to hear an orchestra and cry. I want to be moved. I want to try and get them to play the whole program over again, cause I loved it SO much.

and that, my friends, will be happening shortly.
I'm certain that some of the most memorable and moving performances I will ever hear in person will be within these hallowed 23 days spent in Austria and Germany.

I can't wait to listen. That's a first for me.... the girl whose brothers wanted to make a shirt for saying "Help! I'm talking and I can't shut up!". True story.

....the whole living in a hotel with one of my best friends for a month might be awesome, too.
just maybe, though.



all i can say is,
hell. yes.
worth every freaking penny.