soothing

in a complicated time, a good friend gave me the best guidance ever, and it was simply rilke. admittedly, I haven't read a ton of it, but what I have challenges and comforts me all at the same time. I recently came across this and thought it far too applicable to something that I think a lot of us are dealing with right now - learning how to live with ourselves. What to accept, what to despise, what to fight, and what to discard without a second thought. It seems as though we all have somewhat of a repetitive theme - a burden or large question that we are trying to find the answer to for ourselves. To somehow be free from ourselves. So, for all of you with questions that keep coming back to haunt or sooth you, to challenge or comfort you, I give you this, just as someone once gave me.


i beg you...to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. do not search for the answers, which could not be given you now, because you would not be able to live them. and the point is, to live everything. live the questions now. perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.
-rilke

firework

what you are in love with, what seizes your imagination, will affect everything. it will decide what gets you out of bed in the mornings, what you do with your evenings, how you spend your weekends, what you read, who you know, what breaks your heart, and what amazes you. fall in love, stay in love, and it will decide everything.
- pedro arrupe

once again

here i am, thinking of questions and delayed or unfound answers.

SURPRISINGLY!
this week, i've found a lot of answers to a question I didn't know I was asking.
you could say I had an a-ha moment.

think tanks
college professor
curriculum advising
administration
or just straight up pursuing being an excellent teacher (in my education articles, they're called "Master Teachers")

I'm starting to think of where I'll be and what I can do to have the greatest impact.

and I'm also considering something Professor Hightower said in conducting class - there's a time to be constructive and helpful, and there's a time to say "you're wrong" or "that's late" or "try again, but do this differently". This straight forward and no frills approach to education and performance.

ok. computer dying. byyyye!

YESSSSSSS

ONE OF MY LIFELONG DREAMS HAS COME TRUE. almost.

i know when it will come true - THANKSGIVING

somebody get me some women's/cooking magazines, cause THIS LADY'S IN CHARGE OF THANKSGIVING!








that's actually all i got fer yew.
maybe i'll be posting pics :)

findings

when i find things i like and wish to remember or be able to find, i stick them here.
so, enjoy?


"After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t mean security, and you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises, and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child, and you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure… that you really are strong, and you really do have worth.” ~Veronica A. Shoffstall

ps I found this on Emily Streeper's facebook.
just wanted to give some e-cred.