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Have you ever wanted to be really great at just one thing?

When I get puzzled about what I'll be doing in the future, I end up saying to myself, "I just want to be really excellent at it". Cause if I'm GOOD at my job, chances are that I'll love it.

But lately, I've been feeling like school is just too many things all at the same time. Sure learning how to manage a calendar and set priorities are valuable skills that come from having expectations, but this is a big extreme.

If I could take each of my classes that I'm taking right now, just ONE at a time.. I'd actually be able to dedicate time to it. Now I really feel like I'm flying by the seat of my pants on a regular basis, scrambling to make my next deadline, and consistently letting someone down (don't worry, it's a rotating schedule - everybody gets disappointed at least once). But somehow, I'm always disappointed with myself as well. It's frustrating to have all of these things that i COULD love, but they end up biting me in the but cause I'm too busy to pay attention to all of them. It's like I'm dating a 15 headed dragon or something.

BUT, it's all good. Cause I'm going home for break. Wait, what? Break? Well, sort of. I'll be teaching, and I know it'll be a good experience, but something inside of me just wants to watch horrible MTV and VH1 shows in my pajamas, take a yoga class or two, read some funny stuff, make yummy food and call it an excellent break.

Just so you know, I am actually QUITE pumped about this experience, just not it's timing. But, I guess it's only fair, cause I was in Vienna for a month :)